future, now, etc

i noticed this week, because i've had so much schoolwork to do that i actually wasnt looking forward to the weekend at all. i wanted the week to crawl by as slowly as possible because i needed all the time to work and read and make progress on assignments. i remember thinking, at work on thursday morning, that it was friday and then breathing a sigh of relief when i realized it was still thursday. now its the weekend and as usual, the later monday comes around, the better. not that monday is going to come any faster or slower than it always does but that fact never seems to matter when you're looking forward to or dreading some event in the future.

but while i've been busy with school and not wanting the future to arrive too soon, i've been pretty content. its much better than hating your life and wishing that whatever you might be looking forward to in the future (like the end of the term) would just arrive already. not only does waiting for the future make your life miserable but i'm not getting any younger and i feel like i've already wasted a lot of time in life. maybe because i've always been looking forward to the future.